I grew up an only child and was fortunate to have a great childhood, complete with a loving family. I was also the youngest girl in my entire family, which gave me special privilege. I knew the difference between right and wrong, and I also knew of God. I went to church sporadically, depending on who I was with, but I never made a commitment to any single church or identified with a specific branch of Christianity. I just knew that I knew who God was, and that was that. I figured that all I needed to do was read the Bible on my own. At the time, I only trusted myself, aside from family.
I was the typical rebellious teenager, but I had no voice. I was scared and had no control over my life because my family had the final say. Once senior year came around, I couldn’t wait to leave home and my small town. I felt as if nothing was in store for me there and once I saw my EXIT sign in the darkness, I left. After 18 years, I was free to be who I wanted to be because no one was here to tell me otherwise. I took my family’s advice on going to church and simply prayed one night asking God to help me after making some bad decisions. The next day, I ran into some girls who went to New Covenant Christian Church at UNM. I met with them for a couple weeks, but continued with my childish ways in letting my past situations cloud my judgment. They were the nicest people I have ever met, and I had abandoned them. I asked God one more time for help because I was tired of doing everything on my own and failing each time. A couple days later, I ran into one of the first girls I met. I started over by taking things more seriously, including attending church regularly. I began to see changes, both big and small, in my life.
On February 17th, I went to New Covenant Christian Church with my family. We arrived during worship. My mom grabbed my hand while she was singing and I looked over at my family and they were all at peace. They were actually with me, at church, and they were enjoying it! It was hard for me to hold it together because this was a truly beautiful thing for me to experience. A feeling came over me that was so warm and peaceful, a feeling that I wanted to keep. If God could do this to my family, then I’m completely done doing everything on my own. It was at that moment that I truly gave my life to God! I have come a long way since then. I’ve accomplished things that I never thought were possible. Because of God, I was able to start living my life the way He wants me to and each day is a blessing. I know I’ve changed because I look at myself now and am happy because there is no greater love than His, I just needed to stop being stubborn for one minute.